Let It Go (Microwaves condensed)

[contra_diction]

trapped in a cage/ body fillin' wit' rage/ adrenaline guage
is full
walls made of steel/ invisible but real/ every single meal
is dull
everybody's against/ nothing makes sense/ no defense(s)
too slow
living a lie/ the mind starts to cry/ now turning anti
social
heart turns to ice/ pushin' (away) what's nice/ questioning the very life
and soul
smile's just a front/ nothin' left but the blunt/ tired of the hunt
untouchable
turning down charity/ passion's a rarity/ popularity
is superficial
making final amends/ plenty of friends/ but they're just a means to an end
of the Flow
everybody's so uptight/ nothing seems right/ when people have to fight
for material(s)
acting unsensible/ because of things incomprehensible/ but still reprehensible
and emotional
a kid underrated/ getting real agitated/ growing carbonated
'bout to blow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

let it go
just let it go



[not about suicide, though one might be led to believe so]

[contra_diction]

MICROWAVES (Stevie Mac)
wunce upon a tym they’s wuz a azn/ had a fyn reppy-reputation/ wit’ his rymes sunshyne sensation/ simple dimpled creation/ skillz on tha Playstation/ versed in verbal retaliation/
returned reluctantly 2 his nation...
ch-ch-ch-ch-trapped in a cage/ body fillin wit’ rage/ adrenaline guage iz full// walls made uv steel/ invisible but real/ every single meal iz dull ~zwhip~
ripped
Flippd (tha FUKKIN FAQS)
-clip-
*clik-clik*
switch
wunce upon a tym they’s a caucasion/ known in his sport fa oncourt domination/ good grades glorification/ no occupation/ but neva munny-hungry, rather a Ghandi imitation/ green starvation/
sent sadly bak 2 his nation...
eva, everbuddy’s against/ nuttin’ makes sense/ no defense, too slo//livin a lie/ tha mind starts 2 cry/ nau turnin anti social {SHIFTED}
slipp’d
skipped (tha FUKKIN WAX)
Writ
CUT THA SHYT!
wunce upon a tym they’s a aberation/ born 2 dis world in elation/ wit’ all his frenz had a happy relation/ but very few knew his history’s tu intimation/ brain killin inhalation/ on-tha-side solicitation/
the real reason fa his regretful return 2 his nation...
h-h-h-hei! heart turns ice/ pushin wuts nice/ questioning tha very lyf & soul// smiles jes a frunt/ nuttin lef but tha blunt/ tired uv tha hunt untouchable “Blip-blip”
sipped
hit (tha FUKKIN GAT)
^lit^
spit
(HNM)
Once upon a now! There’s a memorization (Hide)
Of faces he might never see again in this life’s insinuation (Nothing)
But only within the comfort of sedation (Means)
On his heart is a large perforation (H)
For he left behind a body and mind that he held in complete adoration (N)
For this girl he held an unspoken, more-than-once stolen but invincible and unconditional loving infatuation (M)
Yet another reason for his regretful return to his nation... (Holloman, New Mexico)
ta, ta, ta, turnin down charity/ passion’s a rarity/ popularity iz superficial// makin final amends/ gotta lotta frenz/ but they’s jes a means 2 an end 2 tha flo’ XschripX
want? holly
2? nicole
be? mcclure
ryt?
wunce upon a nau! they’s a vacation/ unwanted, iz haunted by disconsolation/ hit hard by hateful stereotyped discrimination/ by an unseen, unheard, unfelt congregation/ no tru frenz fa his hed’s inflation/ however, onli 1 state adjacent/ iz a homey’s edification/
entered unenthusiastically bak in his nation...
eva,everbuddy’s so uptight/ nuttin seems ryt/ wen peeps got 2 fyt fa material// ackin unsensible/ cuz a thangz incomprehensible/ but stil reprehensible & emotional ,,,,,, chip
oFf tha old blok tik withoUt tha toCk
!!4!!11!!
wunce upon a never, they’s a reunification/ uv moments lost forever savefa tym ambulation/ [traversation] anostalgic altercation/ articulated alternation/ above-averageapplication/ uv tha oft overlooked alliteration/
apathetically answered fa his nation.
kiggida-kiggidy-k,k,k,k,k,k,kydd underrated/ lyk real agitated/ growin carbonated, ‘bout 2 blo//
Let it go? should I
Nah. shouldn’t
Let it go. could I
Nope. couldn’t
Let it go! would I
No. wouldn’t
Let it go! will I
LE’ I’ GO!! uh-oh
Noooooo. !
Jes’
I don’ kno
Just
? maybe
let it go
mi-an-hap-ni-da but I don’ think so
sumpin diff fa yall. fa me too.
we’ll chill, we will, dis off-azn’s jes gotta be patient//////
XXXOOO fa tha females
SMSMSM fa tha fellas
sarang hae HNM no diggidy

written a long-ass time ago, this is the uncondensed version. very personal. written in sixes.