cliques

[kasia]

are you in a clique? are you popular? describe your social status at school. do you like it? hate it? is it important to you?

[amietron]

before, at my public high school, it was that i was involved in student government, a few various clubs, as well as choir, so i knew or was acquainted with many if not most of my peers. they knew me either by face or by name or whatever. i liked it. the school was went to was fairly clique-ish, but that's typical of high school.

hung out with the asian kids and the white kids. iono. mexican kids don't talk to me. and there were barely any black ones. lack of diversity maybe? i liked it though, for what it was. fights at school weren't frequent. i was free to hang out with who i wanted to hang out with, given that sometimes friends from other groups may tagalong with me. besides the few crappy teachers i had, i liked my old school. i loved it. i was hardcore yearbooker. loved my choir girls/boy to death. sometimes i'd have to take charge at our meetings for student council cus our pres couldn't do jack. yo, it was cool. running miles with kids younger than me was always cool too. like jeff giuliani. he got hot. maybe i should um ask him for coffee. pwaha. =)



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[thaite]

No, I was a total reject. The only things I ever did were to write, take photos and play soccer. All dorky things in American culture. Amazing how I survived high school.

[AliBabaIncorporated]

I hung with a clique of hong kongers in high school. every clique has to have one guy with a funny accent who doesn't know what the hell is going on. I was that guy. but most people in my high school thought i was arrogant and rude, cuz I'd rather hang out with HKers or volleyball people than classmates or dormmates, and cuz I had a sarcastic answer ready for every question.

[kasia]

for most of high school, i hung out with the asian crowd. i actually didn't discover other asians until high school. towards the end, however, the gossip got to me and i became somewhat of a loner my senior year. i went to high school in white suburbia and always wanted out. during lunch, i would either call my city buddies with my cell phone or go to the library to write them notes...i was attracted to their thuggish lifestyle and felt extremely trapped in my preppy town. when i had boyfriends (all from the city), they would sometimes drive over to hang out with me during lunch so i wouldn't feel too lonely. it's funny--i thought i was so different from the other asians from my high school, that they were all so much more white-washed than me. after graduation was when i realized our similarities. i still hang out with some of them now--and they always remind me of how i ditched them senior year.

...we had no mexican or black kids at our school. we had about 5% asians.



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[kasia]

let's hear from more of the members in high school. some of you have mentioned difficulties with trusting friends. what is it like being in high school nowadays?

[karizma]

>> hehe im like taking after kasia's footsteps...i loved the thuggish appeal of the frisco guys :D

>> haha i remember going to school with amie and shouting DOIIII in like the locker room n stuff...i love my amie lol...

>> i went to like 4 high schools so it was a different experience for each one...

- 1st high school: san jose is comprised mainly of vietnamese...so much for associating with my own kind. i befriend the filipinos because they just seemed to not have a stick up their ass as opposed to the other asians...we had a clique...i guess it was pretty popular most of the school knew of us. before i started hanging out with this crowd i hung out with the skaters the punk rockers...they were a cool group but i neither dressed like them or did the things they did so, naturally, i found the group i fit in with most :D....dont regret my choices...it was funnnn...

- 2nd high school: amie's old high school... oh man did they hate me there haha...there were rumors floating around about me before i even got there. sweet right? the womenfolk hated me for whatever reason so i made friends with the guys...the fobs...the hk type people...had a couple close girl friends...and the rest were guys...i got in shouting fights a little shoving but nothin ever went down...i really didnt give a shit as to who liked me or not. dont get me wrong i tried to make friends with girls but pfft...didnt work...i was popular in a sense that everyone knew me...but i didnt know everyone...nor did i get along with everyone...soo lets just say i got along with 65% of the school and the rest hated me... :D

- 3rd high school: i was at a program with some friends at a city college so not much clique crap goin there...just me and a few close friends...it was nice..i really really really like the lack of hs bullshit..until some girls came to my goddamn school looking for me...*sigh*

- 4th high school: current high school...continuation school. 95% mexican...4% black...1% asian...peachy eh? im kinda of a loner and i really dont mind...i dont feel like associating with mex. gangsters anyway...yea i know im racist =/...stopped hanging out with most of my friends from other high schools...now hanging out mostly in the city...with the asian thugs lol...

- damn wayyyy too long

[angel nympho]

Being freshly out of HS... I realize more and more how much of a JOKE HS social rankings are. All the people in HS that everybody wished they could be, nobody wants to be anymore. But then again, sometimes things don't change, and those all around perfect people are still all around perfect. But oh well.

[deez nuts]

6th grade - 9th grade : Fuching Ban :ph34r:

10th grade - 12th grade: The National Honor Society and Westinghouse Science geek crowd :nerd:



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[kasia]

thx for the post, karizma. it totally reminded me of high school. i could kinda picture each group you were talking about--there really aren't that many different groups of people in the bay.

[Chris]

6-9th grade got pick on for being the nerd.

10th-12th ROTC crowd and student government/honors popular crowd suprise eh?

[karizma]

>> hehe i remember making fun of the rotc crowd when they had to walk around school in their uniforms on just some regular school day [sorry] lol...couldnt help it.

>> personally i think its harder to make friends and keep friends during high school. guaranteed there will be a friend who another friend dislikes and youve got to choose which one you should hang out with more and which one you should leave behind because trying to appease both is a pain in the ass...and of course the one you just ditched is now going to start hatin on you haha...oh and not to mention rumors floating around that make it almost impossible to make friends because they hear youre a bitch =/...hmph...petty petty people

[tapestrybabe]

yeah, i was like a total loser in high school.. i was so glad to get outta there... so like after i graduated high school.. i feel i just broke lose... and i turned out to have a helluva lot of fun in college...

[thaite]

Originally posted by Chris@Oct 5 2002, 08:49 PM
6-9th grade got pick on for being the nerd.

10th-12th ROTC crowd and student government/honors popular crowd suprise eh?
So... you're saying you went from nerd to ROTC, student govt and honors.

Not sure I see the difference. :P

[Saiko]

I dunno. High school's really good for me right now. Classes suck, but I think my social life is great. I don't exactly belong to one clique, but I drift from clique to clique. The cliques here aren't really that strong. They merge sometimes. The most detached people from my school are the fobs. They're in their own world. My friends and I wonder what it'd be like to talk to them.
Person: Hi, what's your name?
Fob: ... yes?
Person: What's your name?
Fob: Uh... no?
Person: Okay then. Screw off.
Fob: Yes?
One of them came up to me once and started belting out Korean at me. All I had to say was, "Your mom /is/ hot."
But yeah. Middle school sucked for me because I used to be too shy to talk to the older kids, so I was stuck with my own grade. And trust me, I hate my grade with a passion. They're all idiots. If you talk to any of the girls, they'd go on and on about the guy in grade ten that made eye contact with them for one second. Whoopee. If you talk to any of the guys, they'd talk about banging a ho in the ass. So now that I'm in high school and I'm outgoing as hell, I have a helluva bigger range of people to talk to. Now things would be perfect if they were in my classes. The best parts of school is mornings and lunch, so that's my reason for liking school. I come to school at 7:00-7:30am, even while school starts at 9am. People call me crazy, but I like the routine.

[Chris]

Originally posted by buoywonder@Oct 6 2002, 12:46 AM
Originally posted by Chris@Oct 5 2002, 08:49 PM
6-9th grade got pick on for being the nerd.

10th-12th ROTC crowd and student government/honors popular crowd suprise eh?
So... you're saying you went from nerd to ROTC, student govt and honors.

Not sure I see the difference. :P
hahah the nerds were the popular ones becuase we weere the only group that can speak English properly. LOL.

my school was 75% FOB

[bigwong235]

ehh.. for the first three years of high school i hung out with "the clique." i just hung out w/them at school cause they were the ppl i knew from junior high. outside of school i didn't do anything w/them. i was always accepted as being one of them, but it was also accepted that i sorta wasn't. i floated around all the groups and made friends w/everyone, unlike the rest of the ppl in that clique. senior year came, and i just decided that i was tired of having to be a part of a group that wasn't really like me at all. so i just found better friends. being on student gov't helped out w/that a lot cause i ended up becoming really really good friends w/the the vp and the rally commissioner. also, i became really good friends w/other guys that were from different groups, and my senior year turned out much better socially for me. popularity is overrated and doesn't really mean anything in the long run.

[mydnyht]

I have a group of friends. I don't consider us a 'clique'... We're all friends, we all know each other, and we all hang around each other... and I'm friends with other different people as well. My social status? I'm a loser. In fact, I'm one of the four biggest losers in the school. Does it matter to me? Why, that depends on my medication. I used to not give a crap, but I've been much more sensitive about it lately... I hate pills. I hate 'em, I hate 'em, I hate 'em.

[deez nuts]

Originally posted by mydnyht@Oct 15 2002, 07:42 PM
I have a group of friends. I don't consider us a 'clique'... We're all friends, we all know each other, and we all hang around each other... and I'm friends with other different people as well. My social status? I'm a loser. In fact, I'm one of the four biggest losers in the school. Does it matter to me? Why, that depends on my medication. I used to not give a crap, but I've been much more sensitive about it lately... I hate pills. I hate 'em, I hate 'em, I hate 'em.
You shouldn't be so critical of yourself. You seem like a bright. intelligent and energetic 14 year old.

What medication are you taking, that you hate so much? If you don't mind me asking.

[mrazntre]

In high school I hung out with my friends from jr. high. We used to ditch, get drunk, jack food from the liquor store and play pool all day instead of going to all my advanced classes. hmm.. what were generalized as... uhmmm.... I suppose we were seen as post-taggers/gangsters/party crew. That was back in '94... if any one of you knew what was going on during that time period, you know.. the riots and junk. That was a really hard time for me because I was in the "magnet program," which was/is supposed to be a specialized program for the geeks and nerds. Those were the only classes that I saw asians. Most of the Asians were a bunch of pussy ass f00s, it was disheartening and affirmed my stereotype that most asians weren't down for nothing. Needless to say, I didn't talk to any of them. I rememeber sitting in class, fiddling with my hat, fixing my pants and making sure the creases on my shirt were still looking good. I ditched those classes so much.... I ran out of excuses. My clique wasn't popular at all, I don't think.

I was uprooted and placed in a suburban white school for the tail end of my high school career. Oh man. that was miserable. I was pretty much a loner for those years because I didn't like those people there. I found 1 good friend there. I kicked it with a few people, but our styles of dress greatly differed. Everyone was mentally sharp tho. It sucked over there, big time. I heard some people talk shit on me the first few days I got there.. but it was all good because I knew I had my homies from back when to come up and wreck shit up. Plus a lot of the white people were scared of me.

hehehe......

[mydnyht]

Originally posted by Chasiubao_Boy@Oct 16 2002, 12:56 AM
Originally posted by mydnyht@Oct 15 2002, 07:42 PM
I have a group of friends. I don't consider us a 'clique'... We're all friends, we all know each other, and we all hang around each other... and I'm friends with other different people as well. My social status? I'm a loser. In fact, I'm one of the four biggest losers in the school. Does it matter to me? Why, that depends on my medication. I used to not give a crap, but I've been much more sensitive about it lately... I hate pills. I hate 'em, I hate 'em, I hate 'em.
You shouldn't be so critical of yourself. You seem like a bright. intelligent and energetic 14 year old.

What medication are you taking, that you hate so much? If you don't mind me asking.
Right now, I'm on Depricot and I'm slowly going off Effexor and Seraquel. Or however you spell them. :P

[karizma]

>> hey bunboy can u prescribe me some like...vicatin or prozac, or maybe even viagra? how bout valium? lol...

>> mydnyht: i understand how jr. high and high school can be tough on a teen [being one myself]...kids can be cruel and boy can they ravage one's self esteem and its even worse when you're constantly reminded of your position on the popularity ladder. the best advice i can give is "f 'em" [not literally]. crap...it took me a while to learn that their opinions shouldnt matter to me and it seems like youve got friends to hang out with so why bother with the others who may look down on you for whatever reason?...they aint worth it and you should not feel shitty because of them...worry about the more important things yea? =)

[angel nympho]

Originally posted by mydnyht@Oct 17 2002, 12:00 AM
Originally posted by Chasiubao_Boy@Oct 16 2002, 12:56 AM
Originally posted by mydnyht@Oct 15 2002, 07:42 PM
I have a group of friends. I don't consider us a 'clique'... We're all friends, we all know each other, and we all hang around each other... and I'm friends with other different people as well. My social status? I'm a loser. In fact, I'm one of the four biggest losers in the school. Does it matter to me? Why, that depends on my medication. I used to not give a crap, but I've been much more sensitive about it lately... I hate pills. I hate 'em, I hate 'em, I hate 'em.
You shouldn't be so critical of yourself. You seem like a bright. intelligent and energetic 14 year old.

What medication are you taking, that you hate so much? If you don't mind me asking.
Right now, I'm on Depricot and I'm slowly going off Effexor and Seraquel. Or however you spell them. :P
HATE meds, too. Feels so fake. Used to flush pills down the toilet instead of taking them.
Instead, I took it upon myself to take *different* kinds of pills. Haha, you know... exstasy, vicoden, xanex... =P

[wylin]

Originally posted by mrazntre@Oct 15 2002, 09:47 PM
In high school I hung out with my friends from jr. high. We used to ditch, get drunk, jack food from the liquor store and play pool all day instead of going to all my advanced classes. hmm.. what were generalized as... uhmmm.... I suppose we were seen as post-taggers/gangsters/party crew. That was back in '94... if any one of you knew what was going on during that time period, you know.. the riots and junk. That was a really hard time for me because I was in the "magnet program," which was/is supposed to be a specialized program for the geeks and nerds. Those were the only classes that I saw asians. Most of the Asians were a bunch of pussy ass f00s, it was disheartening and affirmed my stereotype that most asians weren't down for nothing. Needless to say, I didn't talk to any of them. I rememeber sitting in class, fiddling with my hat, fixing my pants and making sure the creases on my shirt were still looking good. I ditched those classes so much.... I ran out of excuses. My clique wasn't popular at all, I don't think.

I was uprooted and placed in a suburban white school for the tail end of my high school career. Oh man. that was miserable. I was pretty much a loner for those years because I didn't like those people there. I found 1 good friend there. I kicked it with a few people, but our styles of dress greatly differed. Everyone was mentally sharp tho. It sucked over there, big time. I heard some people talk shit on me the first few days I got there.. but it was all good because I knew I had my homies from back when to come up and wreck shit up. Plus a lot of the white people were scared of me.

hehehe......
growing up i hung out w/ mostly korean guyz and this group of japanese girls and as highskool came about i just hung out w/ that same group of girls (now w/ a few guyz mixed in and we sat there ate and dicussed things at our lil bench). The korean guyz i stopped hanging out w/ because they became wannabe gangsters and into that whole koreans are better phase. then again i was friends w/ the chinese lil gangster wannabe mobster vanishing son crowd..and we used to mess w/ koreans gangsters and fobs if they offended any chinese or taiwanese person. In college i just met everyone and formed the will clique random ppl who all know each other tru me and hung out and liked cars or were gf's of friends or just random ppl. yay

[bluecollarjap]

its been a while but i went to an all white high school. not even the token black guy in sight. the only thing that saved me was sports. started as tailback from 10th -12th, and was fast enough to get a good ass wooping in 100m at states a few time. but i find this all to be false friendships. yeah, contribute to sports but i was really not a close friend to anyone. graduated and havn't heard word from any of my fellow classmates. oh well, their loss.

[unordinary.girl]

although highschool for me was over in like almost 3 yrs ago...i'd like to give my insight on this topic :P

i was such a loner in highschool......

i had friends from various crowds and had a small group of friends that i hung out with from time to time, but i went to 3 different highschools so making friends was pretty hard...

basically i just kind of kept to myself and made friends with whoever i met and talked to.....

i really hated the so-called "popular clique and crowd," i guess it was because the ones i knew or had come into contact with were sooo self-centered and thought they had the right to look down on everyone else.......

*sigh* im sooooo glad high school is over with and im in college......LOL

i hate highschool with a passion :)



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[BeTheReds]

Wow, there are other forums here besides Hapas and the rant room!


Me in H.S. 40%black 30% White 20%Hispanic 10%Asian

9th grade: shy quiet not excelling in any subject at all. Not many friends except the ones I kept from middle school. Chess club Asian-American club on occasion. Went to Animal Rights Foundation a few times cuz I thought I wanted to be a vegetarian cuz some girl wanted me to.

10th grade: bitter that my girl basically ruined my chances for being accepted in any cliques, I became a goth and actually believed I was a vampire. My hair grew to my butt and I wore flannel shirts and idolized Kurt Kobain, Axl Rose, and Stone Temple Pilots. Hung out with the smokers and potheads. Didn't give a shit about anything at all and constantly depressed about everything. Identity crisis kicked in too based on the fact that the Asians in the school were totally cliquish and didn't consider me one of them. Worst Academic year. Tried to join the V-ball team but got cut and reduced to equipment manager to work on me skills. Tho this must have been a turning point in my H.S. life cuz that's when...

11th grade: I noticed that it was becoming somewhat cool to be a goth and the majority of people becoming goths were silly white kids who wanted to be minorities. So I stopped. Actually made the V-Ball team and with that I gained acceptance in the v-ball crowd which was basically the same as the Asian crowd, since all the top people in the Asian crowd were playing v-ball. Rode the bench. Grades make a turn for the better.

12th grade: Pretty simple... more v-ball as a starter now, first taste at h.s. popularity as froshy asian girls circulate rumors that that cute guy with the wicked spike is actually Korean, grades soar, near full acceptance in the asian crowd clique towards the end of the year, but that all broke down when I got to college when I simply became a number in a system and practically anonymous. Oh, and I finally cut my hair!

[Ryan]

cliques are a joke. although not conciously, basically undermined that whole mindset throughout junior high and highschool. basically when i moved to the area where i live now, (from jersey city) my brother and i were literally the only filipinos in the entire school. in a way that kinda took alot of pressure of us. i hung out with all sorts of people and i didnt give a damn who saw me with who and when. i chilled with the ken and barbies, the jocks, the band nerds, the computer nerds, hiphop heads, the junkies, the punk rockers, the ska'ers, the skaters, the ravers, you name it. i think one of my favorite times in highschool was when id bum a ride of this really funny/odd skater kid who drove an old ass rusting 1980 ford pickup to school. that thing was straight up pimp. in short, highschool was what you made out of it. i didnt really let things like "cliques" get in the way of meeting all sorts of interesting people. what i still find suprising is how much of the "highschool" mentality actually carries over to college..then again maybe it isnt so surprising..

[Adaon]

Eh, school in general is where ya learn almost everything of socials skills, from cliches to dating, it's what you make of it, you go out and try to make friends, ya prolly will make some good and bad ones.....

HS seems like a lifetime ago even tho was only 99 when I was there myself.....whatever ya do if ya can avoid working, do it!! Makes your life a horrible drag of day in day out crap!!

Bouncing around had its advantages for me because I was just into everything and almost anything, but that left no room to make any real friends who stuck by my side cuz I was everywhere with everyone else. From the fobs to the nerds to the jocks to the potheads to the slackers, I've basically been everywhere and nowhere at the same time.

But going anywhere, it's sometimes hard to find a niche to fit in...... :huh: :blink:

[enygma]

i went to a school that was mostly white so i had mostly white friends. actually, they were all white friends with the exception of the filipino. <_<
i don't think we actually fit in with any clique, me especially. i was in the honors classes so i knew all the smart kids and also the smart kids who were popular that were in the honors classes, then i knew all the dorks because i was in band and academic team, and i knew some of the "weird" artsy kids because they were in my physics class. so, i didn't really fit in anywhere. oh well. :unsure:

[artsfartsyjanet]

grade school: I was in the "most likely to be successful" crowd.
demographics: 46% black, 46%white, 1% Hispanic, 1%Asian, 6% mixed.
Depending on the crowd, I'm either the geek, the object of someone's
racial gestures during gym class, or the smart but successful person. I
particularly didn't like junior high because of those racial gestures/slurs from
whites and blacks....but I think I had the last laugh when I received a
standing ovation from everyone during the end-of-the-year award ceremony
for basically being the "valedictorian" of that school. Damn, I thought I forgot
about these times.

Ok...high school: I transferred to a private school. All female. College-prep. 95% white,
3%black, 1% Asian, 1% mixed. During high school, I drifted from clique to
clique. Everyone was pretty much competitive, but there were a few girls
that didn't care about school. So, I'd say mostly everyone was a "geek"
but I hung out mostly with the really studious people, but sometimes I
sat with the athletes, sometimes with the theatre people, and not much
at all with the what i call the "at-risk" people. =) The at-risk crowd
only seemed to talk about social problems with their boyfriends, getting
stoned, and what not. I liked most of them and vice-versa, but I preferred
not to get involved. =) Hmmm.... I was very ambitious in high school...
I ran for President, Student Council, Treasurer, and participated in
National Council on Youth Leadership.... bla bla bla... So, I was a Student
Government-Geek. I think I topped the cherry in geekdom when I became
Co-captain of the Scholar Quiz Team. hahah...ok... I need to end this post
now before I hurt myself. lol

[Fireblade]

Cliches....

Grade School: 30% Asian 30%White 20%Hispanic 10%Black 10%Everything else
Was a problem child and got sent to the principles office practically everyday during my third grade year... Was a nusicance and a trouble-maker. Stopped all of that in my 4th & 5th grade year, and was just one of the kids who played kick-ball really well. Wasn't popular, almost a loner, with the exception of 2 friends. Did ok in school, ever really stood out.

Middle School: 60%Asian 20%Black 5%Hispanic 3%White 2%Everything else
Went through phases of being a problem kid, a sporty guy, marching band member, and comic books geek. Went through a big geek phase with Magic cards, which essentially made me part of the geek crowd. Ok, because mostly everyone was a geek there. Most culturally diverse group of friends, switched from cliche to cliche. Knew a couple of gangbangers, wanted to be one, but got out of it when I knew they were smoking. (Stupid huh?) Academically did average.

High School: Went to 4 diff. high schools in 4 years.
1st high school was where I felt most comfortable. Was in the jazz band, also part of the community service interact club. Made a lot of friends, and was training for track. Did ok academically and practically knew everyone there. Not exactly popular, but good enough that people who were popular would interact with me, and included me in activities.

2nd high school. HATED IT. CLICHES UP THE ASS. Everyone had to belong to something. Nobody mixed in with other groups. Everyone kept to themselves. Was a loner. Left after one semester.

3rd high school. Went to Davis. 85%white 5%Hispanic 10%everybody else
Bounced back and forth from cliche to cliche. Knew cheerleaders (yippy!) and was in track. Was popular, but not in a crowd. Had friends who wanted to anything and everything. Was happy, but missed friends from home. Popular, but lonely at the same time. This would be the place were I got interested in racisim, because group of skinheads (not kidding, they really were) picked on me because I was asian. Didn't do well with the asian crowd, because I didn't speak mandarin. Left the school pretty bitter towards white males, because... let's face it, they're dickheads.

4th High School. 90%Black. 10%everybody else. AS GHETTO AS CAN BE. Couldn't get back inside 2nd high school, even though it was my district school, because there were too many ASIANS there. Met girlfriend there. Didn't belong to any cliche, because I was always with my girlfriend. Happy as can be, and nobody picked on me.

Senior Year: Went back to 2nd HS. Pissed cuz can't be with gf. Loner. Graduated but didn't attend ceremony. Got my diploma in the mail. Woo.

[mydnyht]

Wow... I'm looking at demographics here, and as far as middle school and elementary school look so far... about 95% white, 2% black, 2% Asian, and 1% mixed. Actually, probably 0% Asian since my friend Ashley moved away. There's one black kid, and one kid who I think is Native American... wow. Gotta love small towns... :sarcasm drips from my voice like poisonous acid: :!

[amietron]

well, my school is 95% white, 3% black and 2% asian.

[Chrysalis]

Okay, my experience was a little different. I went to two catholic private schools. In years 7 and 8 I was part of the 2nd popular group (?) which was all mixed but mainly white. The school was like 90%white and 10% everyone else. I was a member of the S.R.C. Very good grades.

The second school (years 9 - 12) was an all girls catholic private school, run by nuns (I kid you not). There was a convent next door. About 50% white 45% asian (of which 40% were vietnamese) and 5% everyone else.

Neway, I had my little group of about 6-7 people that I hung out with. I found that with this school the italians hung out together, the vietnamese, the filipinos, the hong kongers etc. My group was mixed because I got rejected by the filipinos and the hong kongers. Language is a big barrier to groups.

Neway my main issue with high school was I hated religion education (which was mandatory). I began learning about Wicca and Paganism and felt distanced from everyone. I cut R.E classes and became a sort of loner. I still had my friends but I began to have less and less in common with them. Everyone else who found out what I was up to got all superior and damned me to hell. To the teachers I was someone who had 'fallen' and needed help. Marks went down the drain. Paganism/Wicca had a huge impact on my life and it was unnecessarily hard whilst going to a catholic school.

Now Wicca is cool (go figure).

Hmmmm... I recovered though and now I'm a 3rd year finance student and everythings good. I'm glad I stuck by my beliefs.

Chrysalis :rolleyes:

[VV o n g B a]

from grade school to middle school the percentage was about 85% white, 10% black, 3% asian, 2% hispanic. i was part of the athletic geek crowd. ya... my district was weird.

high school was 75% white, 15% asian, 5% black, 5% hispanic. i was in and out of a couple of cliques. asians, math team, sga... and on the fringe of the super popular athletic beautiful genius crowd. we had math teamers that were football linebackers and soccer state champs.

it was because i was on the fringe of that clique that high school sucked. everyday i was rating where my standing was and wondering how i could move up in the heirarchy. i never moved past the fringe tho. i look back upon it with disgust.

i also realize now how much my math team crowd, who i considered my best friends, really left me out of most of the things they did. i'm still bitter because it felt like a stab in the back when i found out. bleh... i don't care too ever see them again... :angry:

[Hiroshi2]

Well, I'm in hs now. I have maybe two or three friends (at the very most), lots of acquitances. I have a hard time trusting people. I constantly have to decide between sharing a laugh with someone or knocking the fucking snot out their nose.

I generally am a pessimist and I have some problems with myself, e.g. I never can tell if someone's serious or not. When they're trying to be funny, I take it too seriously and it gets out of hand. When someone's serious, I find it funny. And vice versa, people don't know if I'm serious or not. 80%-90% of the time I'm not having fun or enjoying myself at all, and quite frankly I don't want to be anyone's friend. Because as I grew up during my middle school and high school years, I lost more and more trust in people who I thought were my "friends". Now I'm at the point to where I've learned to be fiercely independent and function as a loner, and not to count on any support from anyone.

Sorry if that sounds a bit gloomy, but yeah that's pretty much how my life is right now.

[karizma]

hiroshi: hey you sound like me hahaha...i hate everyone in high school right now...im seriously bitter about it...i dont trust anyone and most of my friends are in college...*sigh* who ever said teenage life was easy needs to kiss my butt. i cant say i mind having college friends though...a whole lot more to do with them =)

[lethal]

Way back when...my HS was about 95% white, 4% black, and 1% asian (me, 2 adopted korean girls, and a japanese exchange student).

I was a loner...had no real friends...many acquaintences, but never hung out with them. Did my clubs and activities every day, went home, studied...same thing the next day. Never went out on weekends...sigh...high school was such a sad life. If I ever go to a reunion, the only reason anyone would remember me is cause I was the only asian guy in my class.

College...now that's when I started growing up, making friends, maturing...had a great time...and paid for it with my grades.

<shrug> there were cliques. I was never part of any back then.